1...2....3....GO!!

So, here I am. Blogging!! woohoo!
I have been wanting to start one for a very long time, but didn't because I haven't bought a computer yet... then, today, sitting at work, I thought to my self, "I'm tired of waiting on that to start this.." So here I am.
Not to get too serious about that, but how often do we do that? We think we have to wait for something to happen before we pursue something we really really want. Even if it is a blog that only I am reading for right now.
I guess that's been something that God has really been speaking to my heart lately. You don't have to wait for something big to happen. I thought for so long that I had to "wait" for my love for God to be at a place that I wanted it to be before I could realize His love for me... when, ironically, the EXACT OPPOSITE is true!!!
I can't even love Him the way He deserves, until... and even then.. can I really love a perfect God the way He deserves when I'm only human?.. but I pretty much can't love Him at all until I realize in my heart just how much He loves me!!!
I've been reading Extraordinary by John Bevere lately and it has completely rocked me.
He talks about in the first few chapters of his book that God sees Jesus and You on the same level. He loves you the same, because if He didn't, He never would have allowed Jesus to make such a great sacrifice for you. Take a deep breath and let that sink in. WOW.

It's almost too much too comprehend. scratch that. IT IS TOO MUCH TO COMPREHEND.
Especially on the eve of this Holiday.
Having grown up in church, I'm ashamed to say, that I am just now realizing first, God's love for me and second, what a sacrifice Jesus made for us.
Of course, I'm not saying that I never realized it, but hearing it for almost 25 years, you just get used to hearing it. Can I say? I never want to get used to hearing it again.
This past Wednesday night, Pastor Bryan was teaching in our youth group, Reality Student Ministries, on the perspective of Mary, the mother of Jesus during the crucifixion. He also showed some clips from The Passion of the Christ to illustrate. He also noted that the Bible says that the visage of Jesus was marred beyond recognition.. clearly, much worse even than what was shown in the movie.
As he was speaking, my heart began to break. Because, I put Him on that cross. Of course, we all did, but I DID. It became personal. And God began to do something in my heart that has resounded there ever since.
I don't want this to be seasonal. I want it to be permanent. I want to always recognize that HIS LOVE for me put Him there. And that even when He wanted to get out of it for a moment, The Father encouraged Him to keep going through an angel that ministered to Him, basically saying, "Son, you are almost there. You've gone too far to turn back now. You can do this. Think of your Bride." Put your name there, because He did.
And here's what gets me... IF YOU WEREN'T WORTH IT, HE WOULD NOT HAVE DONE IT.
again. WOW!!
I don't know about you, but I can't wait to see my precious Bridegroom face to face and kiss the very wounds that will have allowed me to stand in His presence. His is a perfect love that I just cannot get enough of.

God Bless :-)
Karis Lynn