***WARNING**** THE FOLLOWING POST INVOLVES ME BEING COMPLETELY TRANSPARENT... but somewhere I read the truth will set you free, so read on.
Yeah... I know.. blogging twice in one day is a lot... but God has been speaking today... for real.
Today work is kinda *she whispers so that the customers that aren't calling won't hear* slow... eesh.
So, with that state of things, this girl's mind starts to wander... like a sheep... I don't mean to, but it happens.
And today, my mind is on Jesus. I've become quite obssessed with Him lately, and there's nothing like it. I've been praying for this for a very long time... and He has captured my heart..
I'm absolutely astounded and humbled and amazed at the fact that I can't even love Him without Him. I can't believe in Him without Him. I can't even have a desire for an encounter without Him first putting that desire in me. Exploring the deep crevices of the Father's heart, as Pastor Shawn used to tell us, is the most amazing thing ever.
I have sought Him and found Him... not of my own doing but of His.
For the first time in my life, on this past Sunday in my quiet time with the Lord, walking through my neighborhood at sunset, I literally cried for His return... for Him to come quickly.
Let me tell you a little bit about me... for YEARS, I have been deathly afraid of the Rapture taking place, of Jesus coming back.
and, just yesterday, I realized why.
I was on my way home from the gym, with one of my youth students actually in the car with me, and God spoke to me and said, Karis, you have been afraid because you are insecure about your eternity. You love me, but you have yet to trust me with your eternity. You are holding on to it, and trying to make it to heaven through your own strength. I already took care of it.
Whoa. Me? a Jesus girl... the girl who was doodling the name of Jesus, and the names of God, ever since she was old enough to write.
As soon as I was alone, I had some SERIOUS repenting to do!
Maybe I'm not alone in this. Just maybe I'm not the only one who sometimes worries about where I'll spend eternity. Calling yourself a Christ follower doesn't mean you actually are unless you actually FOLLOW THE LAMB WITHERSOEVER HE GOETH (to borrow the kjv on that one.)
This is just another example of me... I am a late bloomer.
At almost 25, am I just now realizing what God and Jesus are really all about??
I really do refuse to think I'm alone in this.
This new revelation of God's love for me and His grace has only spurred me on to deeper devotion and deeper worship.
I pray that you too would have a deeper revelation of His love for you and that it would drive you to a more intimate relationship with Him.
Yeah... I know.. blogging twice in one day is a lot... but God has been speaking today... for real.
Today work is kinda *she whispers so that the customers that aren't calling won't hear* slow... eesh.
So, with that state of things, this girl's mind starts to wander... like a sheep... I don't mean to, but it happens.
And today, my mind is on Jesus. I've become quite obssessed with Him lately, and there's nothing like it. I've been praying for this for a very long time... and He has captured my heart..
I'm absolutely astounded and humbled and amazed at the fact that I can't even love Him without Him. I can't believe in Him without Him. I can't even have a desire for an encounter without Him first putting that desire in me. Exploring the deep crevices of the Father's heart, as Pastor Shawn used to tell us, is the most amazing thing ever.
I have sought Him and found Him... not of my own doing but of His.
For the first time in my life, on this past Sunday in my quiet time with the Lord, walking through my neighborhood at sunset, I literally cried for His return... for Him to come quickly.
Let me tell you a little bit about me... for YEARS, I have been deathly afraid of the Rapture taking place, of Jesus coming back.
and, just yesterday, I realized why.
I was on my way home from the gym, with one of my youth students actually in the car with me, and God spoke to me and said, Karis, you have been afraid because you are insecure about your eternity. You love me, but you have yet to trust me with your eternity. You are holding on to it, and trying to make it to heaven through your own strength. I already took care of it.
Whoa. Me? a Jesus girl... the girl who was doodling the name of Jesus, and the names of God, ever since she was old enough to write.
As soon as I was alone, I had some SERIOUS repenting to do!
Maybe I'm not alone in this. Just maybe I'm not the only one who sometimes worries about where I'll spend eternity. Calling yourself a Christ follower doesn't mean you actually are unless you actually FOLLOW THE LAMB WITHERSOEVER HE GOETH (to borrow the kjv on that one.)
This is just another example of me... I am a late bloomer.
At almost 25, am I just now realizing what God and Jesus are really all about??
I really do refuse to think I'm alone in this.
This new revelation of God's love for me and His grace has only spurred me on to deeper devotion and deeper worship.
I pray that you too would have a deeper revelation of His love for you and that it would drive you to a more intimate relationship with Him.
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